Amy has a secret: no one’s ever held her hand. She doesn’t
even know how to hug. Everyone thinks she’s smart, but straight As are way
easier than making friends. Then she meets Dane, a golden-haired surfer whose
easy charm and hot touch teach her what she longs to know.
Dane lives for the salty breeze and a sweet wave, because
that’s all he has. He’s been on the streets since he was fourteen. A drifter.
Homeless. Then he meets Amy. Smart and accomplished, she’s everything he’s not.
He wants to be the sort of man who deserves her.
Except that means facing down his past—and that past might
very well swallow them both.
She hated how his words echoed her thoughts, how they put
him down. Didn’t he know how much she would give to be like him? Relaxed.
Confident. God, she didn’t want to be afraid anymore.
“I’ve got time.”
He pointed behind the castle. “There’s an enchanted forest
right there.”
She knelt down. “Here?”
“No, over. A few inches to the left. Don’t you see it?”
He was…teasing her. It took her a second to understand just because
it had never happened before. Not that she could remember.
She looked down to hide her smile. “I think I’ve got it
now.”
He grinned. “Then get building, Cornell.”
Her first attempt was more like a molehill with a pointed
top. By her second she’d learned to pack the sand more tightly, earning a brief
nod from him. After that she worked steadily, forming the little conical pine
trees in varying sizes. A vision sketched in her mind, of lush trees and
woodland creatures, of fancy and imagination.
Kneeling in her oh-so-practical shoes was impossible, so she
took them off. Her skirt hiked up her thighs as she scooted around the forest.
Sand squeezed between the mesh of her stockings.
She hoped it would never come out.
When he finished carving arched windows, he stood back and
dusted the sand from his palms. She trailed a finger down the last tree—this
was how he’d feel, gritty and soft—before standing up to join him.
He was tall. His height shouldn’t have been a surprise; she
was often the shortest one in the room. But she’d been equal to him on the
ground, both of them dirty and eager in the sand. Now he was the tall, handsome
stranger, and she the shy girl who hardly spoke.
She’d aced fluid mechanics, for God’s sake, so why should
this matter? It didn’t, it didn’t. But her heart double-timed when she asked,
“What do you think of the forest?”
With mock solemnity he studied the trees. They lined up
neatly in rows like a Christmas tree farm she’d passed once in rural New York.
“It’s pretty,” he said, repeating her words. Then he smiled,
almost shy. “Very pretty. Do you want to grab some dinner?”
Her breath caught. Had he just asked her out? It had sounded
like that. Exactly like that. Her heart beat a rapid pace.
Daylight traced tiny lines radiating from his eyes, from the
corners of his mouth. A smattering of blond hair covered the tanned skin of his
chest, highlighting lean muscles beneath. Even the tips of his eyelashes were
bleached, every part of him touched by the sun. A golden boy, a
rippling-surface stereotype, while hidden depths lurked beneath. What would it
take to dive under? In that moment she wanted to find out. Right then she
wanted to drown.
But she’d had a lifetime of treading water, of survival.
Only one answer made sense.
“I’m sorry.” Her voice sounded hoarse with disuse, as if she
hadn’t spoken in years instead of seconds. “I’m not going to be here long. In
Florida.”
She kicked herself. He hadn’t asked her to marry him, for
God’s sake. He’d only wanted a date, and she should be able to do that. If she
were more normal, she could have.
Fleeting emotions flickered across his face. Disappointment
first, followed by others she couldn’t understand. But resignation—that one she
recognized like an old friend.
“All right. Take care then.” His voice rang with finality.
They would part now. She wouldn’t see him again, because she didn’t know how to
be close to another human being. No textbook had ever taught her. No monthly
phone call had told her how to feel.
Her face heated.
“You too,” she murmured. “I’ll see you around.”
But even that presumed too much. A slight shake of his head
said no, she wouldn’t. His lips curved in a cold shadow of his former smile.
“Bye, Cornell.” He crossed the beach, heading for the water.
He walked right past the frothy edge and dived underneath,
leaving only ripples in his wake. His head came up once for air, and again, and
again, growing smaller, farther away.
She waited for hours. Or seconds, really. She stood with
sand caked to her hands and her knees, feeling abraded and raw. Every other
time in her life, she’d pretended not to want this. Friends and laughter. Easy
camaraderie. Touch. Standing on the cooling sand, her stomach grumbling with
hunger, she could no longer pretend.
Amber Lin writes edgy romance with damaged hearts,
redemptive love, and a steamy ever after. Her debut novel, Giving It Up, received
The Romance Review’s Top Pick, Night Owl Top Pick, and 5 Blue Ribbons from
Romance Junkies. RT Book Reviews gave it 4.5 stars, calling it “truly
extraordinary.” Since then, she has gone on to write erotic, contemporary, and
historical romances. She has been published by Loose Id, Carina Press, and
Entangled.
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