How do you find someone who doesn’t want to be found? A girl searches for her missing addict brother while confronting her own secrets in this darkly lyrical novel.
Rachel has always idolized her older brother Micah. He struggles with addiction, but she tells herself that he’s in control. And she almost believes it. Until the night that Micah doesn’t come home.
Rachel’s terrified—and she can’t help but feel responsible. She should have listened when Micah tried to confide in her. And she only feels more guilt when she receives an anonymous note telling her that Micah is nearby and in danger.
With nothing more to go on than hope and a slim lead, Rachel and Micah’s best friend, Tyler, begin the search. Along the way, Rachel will be forced to confront her own dark secrets, her growing attraction to Tyler…and the possibility that Micah may never come home.
“Micah’s breathing labored as he carried me. I tried not to move, to make it easier for him, and rested my head on his shoulder.
‘Thanks for saving my life.’
‘That’s what older brother’s are for.’
‘If it had been you, I couldn’t have held on for so long.’ There was no way I could have pulled him out of the flood.
‘Yeah, I’d probably be dead by now.’ He tried to laugh, but he couldn’t catch enough breath. ‘Nah, you would have found a way. If you had the chance, you would have saved me.’”
Carrie Arcos lives in Los Angeles with her family. She writes young adult literature and is an adjunct professor. You can find more about her at carriearcos.com